FINALLY OUR SECRET CAN BE SHARED...

So we had a very nice Christmas. We were able to be with all members of the family and share in the wonderful Christmas spirit. My hubby got me some really cool presents which included a Coach purse, some new vinyl for my album collection, and an AUTOGRAPHED script of Scarface with the signatures of none other than the man himself Al Pacino, Oliver Stone, and Michelle Pfieffer to name a few. It is incredible!!!
But the best Christmas present that we got this year is Peanut!!! WE ARE HAVING A BABY!!! We are due in the middle of August!!! Can you believe it!!!
Now I did not know that I was expecting when I quit smoking but it is a miracle. It's like everything has come together and has been tied together with a big red bow by the Almighty this year.
Although we are anxious, hubby and I are beyond excited about our soon to be new addition. I am glad that I FINALLY get to make this announcement. My sister and Tina, who read my blog daily were surprised with the news for Christmas so I couldn't announce any sooner. But they both know now and everyone is all excited.
I hope that everyone had a blessed Christmas and I hope the New Year brings wonder and amazement for all.

Peace Out!!!
P.S. Now does everyone understand my Christmas song choice??? lol ;)

And to all a good night!

MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!!!

Peace Out!

14 days

And I must say that smoking is pretty much the last thing on my mind. At first I thought that I had made a wrong decision (how good I even have thought that) but now I could never go back. I am smoke-free and loving it. I know that ya'll are probably tired of having me rant about smoking, but other than that there hasn't been much excitement going on around here ;)

Me and the hubby finished up the Christmas shopping yesterday and I have managed to wrap his presents. I went to bed early last night and thought I heard him wrapping mine :)

But other than that, I havent begun wrapping any other presents. I just want to get this week over with and let the festivities begin. I have a feeling that this is going to be the best Christmas EVER!

I wish all my fellow bloggers out there a fantastic Christmas and a Very Merry New Year!!!

Here is a pic of me and hubby from my B-day dinner with the fam~ Enjoy!

Peace Out!

8 DAYS...

It has been 8 days and I am still smoke-free. It has been very difficult but I am hanging in there. My B-day party went very well and it was loads of fun. It's hard to believe that I am actually 30 now.
I have had a lot of time to reflect this week. I have struggled and been extremely depressed but hopefully the worse part is over. They say that the physical addiction to smoking is over in 7 days and the psychological addiction can last up to 6 weeks.
I will keep holding on. For all of you that have been a support to me~ I really appreciate it! It has meant the world to me, even though I might have acted like a bitch at the time~lol.
To all of those who let me down, well I have learned that I am stronger than I thought and although your support would have been greatly appreciated, I don't need you I guess~lol.
Have a good week all!

Peace Out!

TOUGH WEEK!

Well this has been one of the roughest weeks ever. I know that some of you know that I am (was) a smoker. I have smoked for about 15 years. I made a promise to myself that I would quit by my 30th for myself and everyone else around me.
Well with my B-day on Saturday, I knew that this past weekend was D-Day. So Sunday I awoke a non-smoker.
Horrible, horrible decision (not really) but it has been sooooooooooooo awful.
I feel that I am in detox from some hard drug like heroine or cocaine or something. I am very depressed, moddy beyond belief, and if I know you, then I will probably rip your face off from one minute to the next. The bottom line is that I am hurting!
I know that I need to not smoke. I know that it is healthier for me and my family. I know that this is the right thing but, here are the things I don't know:
I don't know if I do not want to smoke. Smoking has been a large part of my life for so long that it feels like a death. To some of you this may sound pathetic, but it's true. I feel that something in me or about me has died/changed. Not to mention the fact that I turned 30 on Saturday and then ripped my whole world upside down on Sunday.
I don't know if I can be successful. It has been 4 days since my last cig and I know there are more days left for the physical addiction to dissolve and then it's left to the pyschological addiction. I want to smoke just the same as I wanted to smoke 4 days ago. Now it is true that the pain is not as intense but it's still there.
I know that this seems like a ramble but it's not. Please no one ask me if I am trying the patch or the pill or the cough drop because I am not. I quit Cold Turkey and I really wished that I had not quit at all.

Peace Out!

YOU SAY IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY...

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY TOO~YAY!!!

Today I have turned the big 30!!!

Although 30 is a big milestone, I am happy that I have been so blessed to make it this far. Some people don't get that chance.

My Birthday so far has been GRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTT!
My hubby got me a 19" black pearl necklace, some godiva chocolate, the new Godfather book (The Godfather's Revenge), and a book on the Doors,which is the coolest.

My mom and I have a yearly ritual to go to lunch the day before my B-day and then shopping. She bought me some really nice clothes and this kick a** crushed velvet green jacket. Rockin!!!

Today I will celebrate with my family at a late lunch. Then tonight my hubby and best friend, Pook, are throwing me a PARTAY :) at a local hotspot and have invited 40 of my closest friends. It will be fun.

Well thats all for now, but I do want to wish a fellow Blogger a very happy B-day on Monday the 4th. You all know him and love him~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY GARETH!!!

Peace Out!